You meant this much.

I've always regretted. Being stupid enough to trust me.

& i hate you, to the cores.

I'm annoyed at the thoughts of you.

& it hurts every single time i think back about it.

I try to move on. 

Telling everyone that it wasn't even a thing to begin with.

That there weren't any feelings.

But there was , trust.

I trusted you. A little bit too much.

& now i know what a big mistake i've made to ever go near you.

I hate myself for doing this.

But the thing is, 

it's not so much of forgiving you.

But forgiving myself.

& i need a fresh start.

So i shall leave you behind, leave this past behind.

Look towards heaven & keep moving forward. ;)

¹² Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. ¹³ Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, ¹⁴ I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 3 : 12 - 16